I've been told many times that I'm "out there" Does that count? ;D...Ya know..i dont think that "blue" is really your color..You should try adding some Brighter Colors to your life!!! After all,you only get one spin on the merry go round, so why worry about things that in time will only seem distant and small anyway?? Everythings Eventual..so is it really worth falling off the painted pony trying to grab the brass ring?
I'd like to add more colour... I'm tired of it smearing to blue and grey every time though. I'm really a relatively happy individual, chipper while imagining the demise of 90% of the world population in my mind simultaneously and going out to have fun, playing and making music, reading, drawing, etc.... I think that part of the problem is that I lead a very isolated life with the exception of work (which makes me kind of wish I was isolated) and this forum (a source of joy in my life - no joke. Here, I actually have friends. Well, one, but that's still a friend - I'm sure you can figure out who I mean here...). I should hang around people more often to keep my mood from swinging so much, but it's terribly difficult to find people you don't want to strangle so that there's encouragement through all the annoying little bumps in the road and so one has a sense of purpose in the world. I would love to have some friends - people of intelligence and humour that I could meet face to face and actually hang out with, but so far all of those types of people I have ever met have either been only online in forums and bbs' (remember those days, when those were still out there, before the web??) or if they really existed in my sphere, their stay was very brief before they drifted away. <shrug> That's life, and I'm used to it. At least I can't complain about not having enough "personal space".
I do have to point out that trying to find a real job that offers a living wage and getting into a position where I'm not petrified at the smallest unexpected thing and its consequences because I can weather them perfectly fine is a bit more than something that will seem distant and small later - it merits a small amount of worry, don't you think? Wirklich!
If an asshole like me can actually have friends "A GASP AND SHUDDER ESCAPES THE CROWD BEFORE SILENCE ONLY RENDERS THE SOUND OF CRICKETS CHIRPING" then theres no reason you shouldnt ..of course, 99.9 percent of humanity are assholes ,but,hey their the losers in the end and why should you care what the opinion of an asshole is to you.If there are beings out there who share my interests and i actually can function with them on an intelligent level,then their must be some of them down bayou!!! I know its hard getting past the herd mentality of stupid and tree stump dumb..but ..believe me THEY ARE OUT THERE !!! copyright 1952 universal studios.all rights reserved.Starring Troy McClure and Christina Castingcouch.rated PG
I'm not sure where those people are - I've been looking for them for years. I would love to find one that I could hang out with face to face periodically.
On a side note, I think Renfield, my gerbil, is preparing for his journey to the Elysian Fields. He's acting his age for the first time, which in human years is about equivalent to 120 (he's 4 - gerbils usually only go to about 2 or 3). I hope he's not, but if its time, it's time; I hope he's had a full and happy life. I guess I will find out tomorrow morning if I am correct in my thinking.
Post by Psychotic Episode on Jul 6, 2004 22:13:19 GMT -5
Actually..Phil Hartmann did all the Troy McCLure...."HI THERE !!! You might remember me from many articles in THE STAR and THE ENQUIRER like"My Wife Has a Gun!","Dead Guys Dont Laugh", "Not So Funny After All" and" Lionel Hutz Is Dead"....
Hi-dee-hi again - I guess you guys are wondering where I've been for the past week?
Actually, prolly not...
But I'm telling you anyways, so nyah. I've been swamped by work and a zillion other things such as moving preparations, job hunting, preparing to smush three trips into a week and a half's time, eating every once in a while (yeah, I'm getting to the point where I have to remind myself of little things like that), etc.
So that's where I've been.
Good to know the forum seems to be ok. And clarify, yes I know free hosts/boards have lots of cookies and crap. I am aware of this. If you have issues with it, take a cask of Amontillado and wall yourself in behind all sorts of protective programs. Or just don't come here. Sort of the same idea as TVs having on/off buttons. If I get enough returning visitors, I have ALL intentions of moving on to better cyberpastures. In the meantime, bear with it.
Cranky today? Yes. I'm still working on getting out of that mode now that I'm home, though I still wanted to bring up the previous blurb... though I guess I could have said it nicer, but what the hell. Would you expect any less of me? I did have a fine time imagining the untimely demise of many of the mental midgets that surround me on a daily basis though - maybe one of these days I'll share a few to pass along the imagery. ;D
My My My..We're treating each other just like strangers..I cant ignore the significance of these changes..But you cant treat it lightly and you've got to face the consequences....all in life is in motion and tho most people are petty ,small,narrow minded,ignorant,pompous,self absorbed and their egos are boosted by their narrow conciet,and delusions of holier than tho grandeur,not to mention their total and complete oblivion to the world around them...dosent make them ALL bad..Just plain STUPID is all..for all their arrogance they are just sheeple..following the herd and eating and doing as their told,manipulated by the mainstream and willing to trample each other"including their own mothers" in a heartbeat to preserve their own worthless lives...BUT what they dont realize is that out in this cold cruel world there are FAR worse things than they could ever imagine in the narrow ,programmed farces they call "their lives"...99.9 percent of them are prey..and they better "pray" they dont meet the REAL predators.....
The steady,merciless winds blow unceasingly from the north,sculpting the desolate,snow covered landscape with the aggression of an angry god.. There's only the sound of a thousand dead echoing for miles,combining the cries of untold lost and shattered souls,like spirits in a vortex,they rise and slowly fade,only to be replaced by legions more, playing an unending funeral dirge..There is no life and death here,only existence,only the seconds which are eons,the call of eternity is answered by the blank,cold, staring eyes of a dark and forboding entity,forever awaiting its final destiny with somber patience,knowing,as all must be,that its time will come,and darkness will once again walk with the confidence of one who belongs.
Thats a pretty complicated way to describe how quiet the Hall has been...Where is SPOOK anyway? Maybe we should get her one of those RIFD tags...
Spook is here .... t'was Awol for a while because of lots o' driving here and there, but now I am in one place for a few days, so here I be checking in... I'm here until this coming weekend, then back to Cola Town.... always busy busy!
Still in Savannah, GA... settled a nice apt here, but the job prospect are still slim. The temp agency told me that "there is nothing (they) can do for (me)" and that they "were sorry to have wasted (my) time". Feh. The GA crime lab is a bust, as well as the Skidaway Marine Research facility, a new pathology lab in Brunswick, and Dept. of Nat. Resources. Next up is some of the medical testing labs, a paternity testing facility, then the retail listings and the restaurants as a last resort jumpstart. In the meantime, the state jobs that I applied and interviewd for throughout the spring seem to be back in the running again, so I've once again applied for them - the Dept of Ag. jobs, available in two counties.. one is in the Augusta area which I interviewed twice for previously, and the other position in a county area I've not been called to interview for yet. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.