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Post by LEGION on May 15, 2004 14:26:02 GMT -5
A local?.Yeah ..I'm the one standing on the corner of Santee and Harden...I'm wearing a sign that says "will work for food or beer"..I wrote it on the back of my USC diploma..about the only good thing its done for me..If it gets too hot i'll be at the Village Idiot drowning my sorrows..Alcohol..the cause of AND solution to all lifes problems ;D
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Post by T. Miller on May 15, 2004 18:48:56 GMT -5
A local?.Yeah ..I'm the one standing on the corner of Santee and Harden...I'm wearing a sign that says "will work for food or beer"..I wrote it on the back of my USC diploma..about the only good thing its done for me..If it gets too hot i'll be at the Village Idiot drowning my sorrows..Alcohol..the cause of AND solution to all lifes problems ;D Since we are in the same area, I do have to ask: Have we met, or do I know you? Just wondering since I work down there (sigh) At a job that finds more and more ways to jerk people around (again, sigh) because of the management wallowing in ineptitude. If you wish, you can answer the question privately or in email.
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Post by T. Miller on May 15, 2004 19:44:14 GMT -5
All's quiet on the HALL'S front..Did Kevzilla finially sink to the bottom of tokyo bay? Has Atari finally gone the way of PONG? Is Legion the only idiot that still aimlessly drifts thru the hallowed HALL?Whatever happened to TonTon Macoutes,Frank Discussion,Epistle to Dippy,Baron Cimiteri? Has Revelations begun? Is this the ...END TIMES? Tune in next week for the conclusion of Stupid Answers to Irrelevent Questions! I miss them, too.
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Post by LEGION on May 16, 2004 8:45:58 GMT -5
You work at the WHITE HOUSE?
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Post by T. Miller on May 17, 2004 8:39:53 GMT -5
You work at the WHITE HOUSE? Yup! The White House in Five Points! And about my question, O Dodging One?
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Post by O Dodging one on May 18, 2004 9:58:36 GMT -5
The only dodging i'm gonna do is down to the saluda liqour store,buy a bottle of MD 20/20,then go and harrass customers in front of the blossom shop..ya know..things like"how come they call this the blossom shop when it ISN'T even on blossom?? "They didnt like my suggestion that hiller hardware should be called HITLER hardware either...went to the gourmet shop and demanded to know why they dont carry SPAM..imagine,a gourmet shop and NO SPAM??
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Post by T. Miller on May 20, 2004 21:47:33 GMT -5
The only dodging i'm gonna do is down to the saluda liqour store,buy a bottle of MD 20/20,then go and harrass customers in front of the blossom shop..ya know..things like"how come they call this the blossom shop when it ISN'T even on blossom?? "They didnt like my suggestion that hiller hardware should be called HITLER hardware either...went to the gourmet shop and demanded to know why they dont carry SPAM..imagine,a gourmet shop and NO SPAM?? Ah, but the liquor store doesn't carry MD! U know why? Because it's part of the Gourmet Shop! They're too good to carry such basics as MD & Spam! Why do I know this? Because I work there! I AM A CHEESEMONGER!! ...but, I guess you already knew that.....
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Post by LEGION on May 21, 2004 11:23:49 GMT -5
You misunderstood..i bought the MD20/20 at SALUDA..Southern American Liquors Unique Discount Alcohol...I suppose your gonna say the Blossom Shop dosnt exist either? Im gonna go back to Hannah House on Sumter St. and get my free lunch...today were having fried Spam on day old bread !!!!
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Post by LEGION on May 26, 2004 21:44:18 GMT -5
SEND........MORE.......PARAMEDICS............
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Post by T. Miller on May 31, 2004 21:10:36 GMT -5
Hi all.... hope life is treating you well and that there are an abundance of lead pipes in your pocket. I've been out of town since wednesday last, returning yesterday afternoon only to discover that my cat is now very sick. After dealing with the travelling, the emergency vet until 230 am and again this afternoon, I am very tired, to put it mildly. I was supposed to work today, but stayed home. Life looks insane for the next few days, filled with work (shifts at both jobs each day for the week), various logistics problems concerning vets and cats, finding out if I made it thru round 2 of Dept of Ag's hiring process, keeping myself healthy (I don't carry excessive stress well), trying to work out some creative banking to cover the massive expenses, and maintaining some semblance of half of a mind. In other words, I've been busy, and it looks like I will continue to be busy for a little while longer. Please keep me in your thoughts and I am sorry the Hall Renovations have now gone into overtime - I was hoping to be done by now. Take care of yourselves.
Peace, Spook
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Post by T. Miller on Jun 7, 2004 20:27:36 GMT -5
HiHo... The saga continues for those that care...
It turns out that I didn't get the state job, proving my gut instinct to be right when I noticed the woman I drove four hours to meet was doodling thru the whole interview. I wish they hadn't told me that they were impressed with me or any of that crap; I took it with a nice grain of salt, but they didn't even afford me the courtesy of telling me why I got passed over after all of that.
I'm so tired of these stupid little games, the interviews, the rejection letters... I've stopped counting, I just cram them into a file folder that I never look inside of. Jumping thru the hoops for absolutely nothing - it only makes me feel like more and more of a loser. I knew long ago that a job wouldn't fall in my lap, and that nothing is easy unless you come from the right families. I never expected it to still hit so hard despite the acknowledgement of reality, nor did I realise how fragile my mental state would become. I think it's all the years of being stuck in retail hell finally taking their toll, making a real job seem like a mere glimmering phantasy that I'll never achieve. Maybe I have "Counter Monkey" stamped on my forehead and I'm the only person that can't see it?
I look around at the environment I see daily, and I see so many people my age and younger with stable jobs - nothing glamourous or anything, but consistent enough that living on a month to month basis doesn't feel like a game - and I wonder what I am missing? Maybe I'm riding the short bus and don't realise it? It's not like I am aspiring to be anything important or make very much - I only desire a simple life, but it seems like I may as well desire to be the Empress of some country. I only want to earn a living wage (for my modest lifestyle, that's anything around or above 14k/yr - cheep!), eventually live in an actual house (don't even have to own!), and have someone to spend my life with (that actually lives under the same roof, cares about me, and plans to keep things that way). That's not much compared to most peoples' big dreams, but I never really ahd any of those since I figured I'd only be wasting my time and most of the big things don't appeal to me. But the things I actually do want, are they really so much? I never expected to have any of those by this point in life, but it seems like I should be on the path towards them at this point.
I really am beginning to wonder if I am missing some incredibly key point and that's why I'm getting nowhere. Maybe I'm just a born loser? Dunno, but I've been wondering that one since about 1st grade or so. I realise this is a lengthy ramble, but it feels kind of nice to dump it on some other doorstep for a while. This isn't anything new with me, nor based on this last sole experience - I've had these thoughts for years now. Each rejection simply makes them more and more prominent. Thanks for letting me air out the dirty laundry a little.
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Post by Spitoonia on Jun 7, 2004 23:41:48 GMT -5
HiHo... The saga continues for those that care... I really am beginning to wonder if I am missing some incredibly key point and that's why I'm getting nowhere. Maybe I'm just a born loser? Dunno, but I've been wondering that one since about 1st grade or so. I realise this is a lengthy ramble, but it feels kind of nice to dump it on some other doorstep for a while. This isn't anything new with me, nor based on this last sole experience - I've had these thoughts for years now. Each rejection simply makes them more and more prominent. Thanks for letting me air out the dirty laundry a little. Why have you had such feelings of being a loser since 1st grade? Were you raised by cretins? If you carry yourself as you see yourself other people sense it, did you ever think of it that way? You seem to be a well-educated and rather worldly so why not send those kind of vibes when you go to interviews? Perhaps your kind nature gets taken advantage of, those people asking the questions may be thinking you are too nice of a person to carry out their dirty deeds of screwing other employees over.
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Post by Reverand LEGION on Jun 8, 2004 10:13:02 GMT -5
I dont want to reveal my real age but,lets put it this way...i attended Methusalas funeral years ago.I worked various joe lunch-pail jobs from my teens well into my late 20s..even tho i tried my hardest,they kept dying my black wool white and insisting that i belonged with the herd..sometimes it made me feel pretty baahhd.."oops,sorry" i mean bad..the (whats the point syndrom).I eventually got a job doing something that i found i really liked ,even tho my employer was a cheap,people are disposable type a**hole.But i stuck with it,learned fast..then when the time was right,i stabbed the cheap bastards in the back and applied for,and got, a job doing the same work for a major player in the field...i told them what they were gonna pay me if they wanted me and they did!Eventually i became the Top Dog in my field,and they come to me when theres something major to be done for advice and expertise..and thru it all i'm still the same arrogant,black sheep.Nothing good is gonna fall into your lap..unless you attend a go-go bar and recieve a lap dance..So dont despair so quickly..things have a way of working out if you just keep on at it...Despair is the lock and confidence and determination are the key.Looking forward seems to be miles,but looking back the journey was a short trip."Please dont forget to put a little something in the collection basket on your way out,and i'll see y'all next sunday!"
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Post by T. Miller on Jun 8, 2004 14:15:51 GMT -5
2 points:
The first is that when I go to the interviews, I go in confidently, but not arrogantly, and recognize that I am perfectly qualified for these positions, that I am a good, hard worker, and that I posess many qualities these people are looking for. I know they are sort of like dogs; if they sense fear, they'll be all over it. Therefore, I leave the fear and doubt at home. I go, look them in the eye, and tell them why they should hire me. I give them examples from my other jobs proving this. The self-doubt and frustration don't emerge until the latest round of rejection letters or bouts of insomnia hit (the two are not necessarily connected), when I realise that I am still stuck in square one.
Point 2 is for Legion - I have never expected anything to fall in my lap - I think that sort of thing is reserved for fairy tales and the progeny of doctors and lawyers. I feel the only way things will come about will be through either hard work or backstabbing, and even then, getting somewhere despite your best efforts is never guaranteed. I've put in too much effort to give up, by any means, but having nothing to show for myself is a nasty monkey on my back. I simply can't shake the ideal that if you put in your time, you'll have something to show for it although I know it doesn't work like that most of the time. It just seems that 9 years of retail misery is enough, but it also seems almost like I can't break out of it no matter the hoops I jump through, or how much I wish for a normal, non-disposable feeling life.
(post-script: I say "non-disposable" life, but use the phrase in the sense that I wish for a lifestyle that doesn't have a seemingly ever-present temporary feel to it - I want stability. I fully recognise that wherever I may go, employees (including myself) are almost always "disposable". )
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Post by T. Miller on Jun 21, 2004 20:25:37 GMT -5
Hi hi... I'm feeling really down today... is anyone outwhere??
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